This was the year

Here is another poem I wrote, hope you enjoy it. I'm officially making this my poetry blog so I'll try to post more often but I can't really control how long it takes to write a poem.

"This was the year" by Arianna Gutierrez

 

This was the year:

 The year that everything changed

Where I would wake up in the night to the screams of my mother

Scars on my lips from biting back tears

The year I learned to embrace the suck

No matter how much it sucked

And that words are only words

And “pig” and “slut” would not define me

This was the year I was stripped of my innocence

And thrust into a new world of pain

But I had to swallow my hurt and be the shoulder that others would cry on

But how can I heal someone else when I lay broken?

And all of my words fell on deaf ears

And it was all too much

And I wanted to make them feel my hurt

Wanted to claw and hit and scratch and tear

And everywhere I was, I was entirely alone

In the middle of a crowd of loving people and I was alone

Because I was blind

This was the year that love stared me square in the face

And told me I was beautiful

When I most needed to hear it

And loving friends picked me up off the sidewalk and pieced me back together with threads of hope

This was the year I learned to laugh again

The real kind of laugh that makes your sides hurt but in a good way

This was the year I tasted the grown up world and got drunk from it

And learned how wonderful and mysterious and thrilling it can be

This was the year that I look back on my childhood

And longed for the simplicity of it all
and this was the year that everything got better

And everything was ok again

And I finally found myself